Wondering

It’s always felt like a crime to wonder.  I’ve wanted to think about the future and get somewhere a little bit more interesting.  I’ve always wanted to focus on the future.  I’ve always wanted to think about it in the healthiest way possible, but I’m not sure how to get there.
Anxiety is a little bit of a tricky path when it comes to thinking about the future.  If I think too hard, I start thinking about all the things that go wrong.  I’m not the only one.  Not only people with anxiety feel like this.  It’s not unusual.
But I’m getting sick of feeling so, so stuck.  It’s hard not to feel like that when I’m out of college, working, and not in the physical location that I want to be.
When you’re sitting at a crossroads, there are a lot of things to consider.  The work that I’m doing now will lead up to the time that I can start taking all of the steps that I want.
I’m looking at moving, finding a place to go.  Even if I stay home for another six months, I’m going to use that time to generate enough money that I’ll have a sizable amount to move with.
It’s all about the steps.  I get scared of that big picture future.  If I look at the steps and make smaller monthly goals, then I’m better able to look at the future.  And that’s what I think a lot of people think need to do.  Focusing on the future sometimes meaning taking it a little more slowly than you want.
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