Sometimes, it’s hard to think of myself as anything but a writer. It’s something that I’ve considered myself my whole life. It’s hard to think of myself as just a college graduate or just a freelancer or just anything.
There’s a lot of people that I’ve met through the years that struggle with this kind of subject. It’s hard to think of yourself as a creative individual at times. It’s hard to not think of yourself as a creative individual. Let’s not even get into how work and the creative life muddle that identity even more.
I am a writer. I haven’t been published. I’ve finished several first drafts and abandoned three times as many. A lot of people consider their creative identity fulfilled once they’ve sold something, whether it is to an agent or on their own.
I’m not looking for anyone else to recognize my creative side. I know that it’s there. I try to exercise it all the time. By talking about my creative identity, I’m hoping that someone else will discover some comfort in their own identities. I found it impossible to find that kind of confidence in my thoughts until after I had read and watched people that were confident in their creative selves.
But I know that I will never be completely confident in my creative self. This isn’t a bad thing. Like the moon or the oceans, things change over time, waxing and waning as time passes. It’s just part of the natural order of life.
So while you’re out there trying to grapple with everything that life is throwing your way, consider what part of your identity is wrapped up in the creative life. Even if you don’t feel like you’re always pursuing it, you are a creative individual.